5.31.23

today i am not loving i am the exacting violence of being born suddenly, without being asked first. i am a knife i am ten knives no, one hundred thousand knives. i am in your body and you will never get me out. today i am not invested in the landscape of the body.  today i am a crazy woman who repeats herself. today i am a jealous bitch today i am a lonely whore. today i'll admit the women in my life have given themselves away for rudimentary affection. today you have more than me and i will take it from you. today i use language to get myself off. today i am late i am burning the bread i am making a sandwich. today i am so hungry. today loneliness is the entrance and today i kicked down the door, trying to get to somewhere else.